My life is about to become very shit for a while. I need somewhere to live. I need to run away. My girlfriend is depressed and is telling me how I never do anything to make her feel any better. She forgets ANYTHING nice I ever do. I feel like its me bringing her down. She thinks its me bringing her down. I fucking love that girl but Im pretty sure its nearly over. Heres for 2 and a half years of complete drama, arguments love and fun. Iv loved you baby, but its time to go. I can’t help you get out of this. You need to help yourself. Anything I say is wrong I can never win. I know your feeling down, but having the fact that I’m a shit girlfriend hardly makes me happy. We are destroying each other. Im sorry. I never imagined that 2 years and 2 months ago, as I lay next to you in that room of memories, it would end up like this. But neither did i know we would have this much time together. Im sorry for any time iv every hurt you. Im fucking sorry. If I could go back to the 19th of April 2009 , id have slept the other side of the bed, just to see if things turned out differently. Something inside of me has changed. Its horrible. The thought of you not being here makes my heart explode. I want to hold you tight all night long. I feel like I can never let you go. I guess I’m gonna have to try.
